Cunny
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How do you feel todayThis is just a wee thread, were you can put your emet or non emet feelings down. Just like a members blog.
today I am feeling quite lonley, its like nobody understands how hard it is to go on day to day. Just wish I had a partner to confide things in
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Julie
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Neat idea! I feel lonely as well. We've been here for 8 months now and I just wish I could tell my new friends just how desperately I want to hang out with them ALL the time, but I'm afraid of seeming needy. I miss having good friends nearby.
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Snow
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Hi guys.
Today I feel very scared as I have been closely exposed to a vomit bug, I also feel ashamed for having bad feelings towards my nephew, and I also feel pathetic for drifting away from my friends because I don't like to go out in public much. I feel guilty for taking out my fears on my partner and I feel like this phobia is ruining my life, as no one (who is not an emet!) understands me, and no one wants to.
Em
xx
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dragonfly
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Im feeling positive today because I am going to start my CBT at 11 oclock.
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Lia
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I have mixed feelings today. Since coming back from India, my phobia has quietened down and I think about being sick less and less. I even had 2 glasses of wine on Saturday and I didn't panic and went out dancing until 6am in a crowded club with lots of drunk people.
I feel good because I have decided to go home in October. I will finally get to buy another house, have 2 puppies and settle down a bit.
I feel lonely because I know no-one in Manchester and I have discovered that the people who I thought were my friends aren't really my friends at all. I also feel lonely because I move every 6 months I never have the opportunity to meet anyone and feel like I'm 100 years past my 'used-by date' and I'm 28 in 2 months!
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Royale
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*sigh* Today, right now I'm watching my love play Rock Band.. and he's just such an awesome person.. but it makes me sad. I feel like nothing I do will ever compete with his skill, and it makes me feel inferior..
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Cat80
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Today I am feeling slightly anxious because I'm off to the Dr's tomorrow about my stomach pains and hard front of the neck and worried as always as to what she will say
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Cunny
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Today I have been feeling really off colour. BUT ... I still dragged my backside of to the shops with mum ( local off course ) but ended up walking round Lidl also, which is a big store, compared to the one we go to everyday, and yes its local to me also. At this moment if I wasn't afraid to be sick ; I would just go ahead and do it. I am still refusing to take anti-emetics * to some of you, you will think I am mad * but its been 13 months now since I last took one, and I have been through some rough bouts of nausea since then. Now I am thinking, this could be part of the side effects of not having a period every month - although I could be entirely way of course.
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weechatterbox
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13 months without an anti-emetic
that is AMAZING kelly!!
well done you
today i am feeling yukky.....
like i'm going to have an upset tummy, despite having taken immodium. also bit nauseous...but i'm refusing to take anything for that.
i'm at my work at the mo...sitting at my desk counting the hours till i finish at 8pm.
gxx
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Cunny
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awww hun I feel for you I really do
As you know, I am scared of dodgy tummy so practically live on immodiums ( well I did for a bit, not at much now )
Also I refuse to go to anybody else's toilet, I don't mind just having a pee if ya get me 
Thank you gail, and its been the same amount of time since I have taken a diazepam. Hope you feel better soon, and wishes the time in for you also
kels xx
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weechatterbox
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oh that is SO me
i can only pee at work....nothing more
so i'm sitting her squirming (form a mental picture of THAT if you will!!) cos i need to ..... you know!!
lol
you're doing so so well.
proud of ya hun
gxx
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Cat80
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Feeling sick and my stomach is churning as I have my Dr's appointment at 3.20pm. Have to tell them about my stomach and bowel pains and my noisy digestion (scared it could be serious but that is probably my anxiety)
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weechatterbox
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today i'm feeling tearful....
not sure why
think it's just the fact that i'm exhausted being stressed.
was thinking earlier....
i am TERRIFIED of dying....yet i'm wasting my entire life on panicking/feeling sick/stressing/feeling anxious/getting nervous....
want to cry
gxx
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acdcno1
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I feel annoyed with myself [N]
I'm meant to be revising & I either keep going out or going on Bebo =[
Can't get motivated, I missed (deliberately..because my friend pulled out) of a revision class today which could've helped me pass =[
silly me! =[
x
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Cunny
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| Cat80 wrote: | | Feeling sick and my stomach is churning as I have my Dr's appointment at 3.20pm. Have to tell them about my stomach and bowel pains and my noisy digestion (scared it could be serious but that is probably my anxiety) |
Hey Cat
The best thing for you to do, is be honest and tell them all about your stomach and bowel problems - ya know loose or constipated etc.. and I also have that noisy digestion thingy. Sometimes you would swear, I had swallowed a lion ir roars that much. It is more than likely all to do with anxiety, as anxiety can affect us all in soooooo many different ways
good luck with ya appointment
kels x
I am feeling wonderful and happy, and proud of small steps I have made lately
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Cat80
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| Cunny wrote: |
Hey Cat
The best thing for you to do, is be honest and tell them all about your stomach and bowel problems - ya know loose or constipated etc.. and I also have that noisy digestion thingy. Sometimes you would swear, I had swallowed a lion ir roars that much. It is more than likely all to do with anxiety, as anxiety can affect us all in soooooo many different ways
good luck with ya appointment
kels x
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Thanks Kels, I did tell my Dr. She had a prod at my stomach but couldn't feel anything and said it sounds like a touch of IBS so she gave me some Colofac. I think it is that with my bowel but not my stomach, feels to red raw and sore.
Feeling tired today, only got 4 hours sleep last night as was up till 3.30am with my cat having kittens (5 beautiful babies now here, 3 grey and 2 tabby)
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Cunny
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Congrats on ya becoming a mummy of lovely kittens
You are welcome, just glad you went and they actually didn't try to fob you off. Take a week or so for the tablets to work, and if you are still having problems or still feel its something else. Get yourself back again for a 2nd opinion or as I call it an M.O.T ...lol
I am feeling tired, 2nights in a row I haven't slept well, gone to bed 5am and up again at 8am. but .....
I am feeling happy, as I made it to hen party/meal and was able to stay away from my comfort zone for 2 hours * shocked I was * even tried to eat something, and did have fun. So I am so chuffed with me'self and also may have got a voluntary job working in local shop, an hour a day mon-fri ( i wont be getting paid ) I just wanna do it to get out there again.
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chiknboom
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Having a great week!! But waiting for the happy bubble to burst.
I don't have friends,they think I am an idiot,they don't understand.
Been doing alot of gardening so my mind is occupied with good things.
You guys are my friends,for me that is enough,you are all great I feel
lucky to have you even if I have to put up with this phobia..
(((HUGS TO ALL)))
Dana
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Cunny
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I am still feeling great, and like chiknboom stated * waiting on bubble to burst * I suppose its just because, we ain't used to having things go right for so long. I have had more confidence now, since going on the Propranalol.
My doc at C.B.T set me a goal, to go to appointment on the bus - mind you it was only a short bus journey of 5 stops. But... please bear in mind I haven't been on a bus in 17years and the sheer thought of it filled me with total dread, anticipation and also excitment.
On the day, I stood at the bustop, while my mum and Jacqui sat opposite in the car park, as the plan was to follow me down, incase I had to get off again. My mum ( god love her ) was trying to get out of car to get on bus with me. She was so worried about me. A friend I spoke to on phone got me through it, and when I got off again, I can tell ya I wasn't worth tuppence I was shaking, adrenaline was pumping like crazy. but... I DID IT and my mum couldn't stop saying well done, she had the biggest smile on her face. I then went and did my walk later on, and walked even further this time. I made it to the Primary School ( which is local to me ) I am ok going, its the coming back is when the fear/panic sets in as I realise how far I have walked, and I gotta make it all the way back again. I so wanted to phone my dad to walk down to meet me, or even jacqui and I had my phone at ready. I just thought, no keep going you are doing good. Then before I realised it, I was up the hill again and in the Chemist, waiting to collect prescriptions for my dad and me. I then had a darts match later that night to go to. When I walked in all the ladies in team, were hugging and congratulating me as my youngest sister is in darts team, and she was so proud of ME !! she went and told them all. They are also encouraging me to go further.
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Jackie
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WELL DONE KELLY MATE, I am so proud of you......keep up the good work hun
XXX
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Cunny
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THANK YOU JACKIE XXXX
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bambam82
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This is such a good post!
Today I am feeling half and half,
Happy because its my birthday in 2 weeks and I am finally getting a weekend off work, and I have adorable kids and a great patrner who loves every bit of me, including supporting me through this awful phobia.
Sad because I just feel like crying because I am gripped by this phobia, it feels like I will have one good day and stick 2 fingers up to my phobia and then the next day it will come back with avengence!
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