acdcno1
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Fear of D-e-a-t-h?Okayy,
I'm scared of dying.
I know this isn't a nice post or anything, i just can't post this anywhre else.
I don't even like to write the word D****! =[
It's just soo scary, like not knowing where you go & what you do.
And to think i waste my time...life having emetophobia =[. Ok i'm sure it's a silly thing to post because probably everyone is scared of it, but i have moments now & again when i get it into my head and just can't clear it =[..then i force myself to read afterlife stuff and near D**** experience stuff on the internet, which makes me cry tbh.
I've not thought of it SO much lately thank goodness, but the fear is still in my mind.
What does everybody believe..like heaven, afterlife, hell etc?
Anyone got a link to a more relevant forum..?lol
If ppl don't like this just ask 2 delete it =]
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Julie
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Hmm, well I'm sorry to say I don't have any links for you, but I can tell you what I believe.
I was raised Christian (Lutheran) and went to a Lutheran school growing up. So I believe that there is a heaven and a hell and the way to get into heaven is to believe that Jesus is the Son of God, and he died on the cross for our sins. Pretty simple actually! My 2 oldest brothers are pastors so it's a strong belief within my family.
Unfortunately, this doesn't mean that I don't fear death. I basically fear anything that I don't know or that causes me to lose control -- I'm terrified of passing out (I never have) just like I'm scared of death. I worry about how it will feel and about the fact that I can't control it. I trust that there is a heaven and I'll go there, however, I'm concerned about the process of getting there if that makes sense.
I'm sorry that you're struggling with the fears. I seem to focus on some fear or another most of the time...like fear that I'm developing some awful disease or something. So you're not alone in that respect. It is kind of sad to lead a life of fear though, isn't it?
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weechatterbox
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this is one of my greatest fears too.
sometimes, if i sit and actually let myself think about stuff like 'what does it feel like, where do we go?'....i actually take a mild panic attack. my breathing goes all shallow and i get dizzy.....total terror sets in.
my beliefs??........
well i've got to be honest, i don't go to church. tho i did as a child cos my mum was the sunday school teacher
but even though i'm not a practising christian, i was brought up in a family which believed in religion and i do believe there is a god and a heaven.
like julie, it worries me a bit about how i get there etc.
but what LITERALLY takes my breath away (and sparks the panic) is the thought that one day, i just won't be here any more.
i look around me at my house, my street, my CHILDREN (don't even start me there...i'll end up in tears)....and i think 'how can i just cease to exist? yet the world will go on as normal like i was never even here'.
(god that makes me sound really up myself. lol. like 'how dare the world go on without me'. but hopefully you know what i mean.)
i feel almost JEALOUS!!!!
i don't want to think that other people will be living their happy lives in my surroundings and i'll never see any of it again.
the stuff with my children really really terrifies me.
i think on never seeing them again....and it rips my heart in two. it physically hurts and it makes me cry. so then i wonder 'do you feel that pain in heaven? do you have that kind of awareness? and i think on how my kids will hurt cos to lose a mum is devastating.
it makes me so distressed....
finally (cos i'm gonna stop being so morbid now) i think on the fact that death is forever. if you are aware that you're in heaven.....IT WILL NEVER END!!
right, my palpitations are starting
i'm off.....
gailxx
ps: acdcno1 - sorry.....that really didn't help, did it??
i think the moral of the story is...you're not alone.
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acdcno1
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I'm sorry =[
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weechatterbox
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hey we can both panic about dying together!!!
what are we like.....???
just remember we're young and healthy (well some people are younger than others!!! i'm a geriatric compared to you!!)
lol
gxxx
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helen
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I too am scared of dying. I am 44 and have no religious beliefs. I keep thinking about it so you are certainly not alone. Could this be related to emet?
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Nicolette
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My Dad was raised C of E, yet didn't go to church (!) and my mum was raised Methodist.
As children we were never taken to church/sunday school, etc, and I learnt about religion properly when I was taking my GCSEs!
I'm not sure what i believe, to be honest. I don't want to get into a theological/philosophical/scientific discussion, but I would like to believe there is some sort of afterlife as I'm pretty darned sure I saw a ghost once (whole other thread!) but was it real? What did I see and what did it mean?
I know I don't want to die through something horrible like a heart attack because that's painful (and someone told me once that you can throw up with one[what am I like, eh?]) but would prefer to go quietly in my sleep without knowing about it.
However, we don't always get what we wish for, otherwise none of us would be on this forum at all, would we?
Basically, I think the fear of death is the fear of losing the ultimate control and fear of the unknown and because of that, i think, why worry about it? You can't control it, you can't stop it when it happens, so why waste time worrying about it?
Am I making sense? Or just waffling?
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Lolly
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I'm not scared of dying i've seen 3 people close to me die and up to the day it happened always saw them when they were dead (it took me ages to remember my grandad how he was but not dead, then i had a dream with him in, as if he came back to see me). From what they were seeing and saying up to their death i believe you go somewhere better and with your family. Also a friend of ours can see like dead people and listen to them, she rang us up on day my grandad died (she didnt know he was ill) and said i was thinking of you this morning, don't worry he's with his mum at the moment.
Also seeing my grandad die he didnt make that breathing sound he died peacfully with out a fight, i remember just thinking 'go grandad don't hold on for us just go'.
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acdcno1
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aww,
thnks for all your replies
i thought no-one else would be scared !!
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